11-19-09

I guess its been a while since I have last written because a lot has happened.
So remember that friend I was fighting with, the one I said I would never forgive,
Well. . . We are friends again. It was just different not having this person around.
It always hurt. I would never have been able to move on.
We had been friends for 10 years. I can't just forget that.
This person is my best friend. We let things go on for two months to long.

First day of school. = Drama.

So the first day of school was good. =]
I have study hall every morning then
went to Theatre arts. My teacher was . . . Out there.
And Then had english. I had someone in my class that I hate!
Then went to Alg. I had another girl in my class that I hate.
The girl in my Alg. class has been spreading stuff about me
because I like the same guy she does. Ugh.
If she keeps saying things I can promice you I will get
suspended for getting in a fight with her by the end
of next week. Im so over all of this stuff.
My brother started middle school today.
And in the afternoon he couldnt find the bus.
(Middle and HIgh schoolers ride the same bus)
And I was on the phone with my mom telling her about it
and this girl in front of me turns around and gives me this
look I was so mad I was about to hit her I was just like
"What" haha . . . Guess you had to be there but it was
pretty funny.

9-3-09

Everyone around me seems to think that I am on a downward sprial.
Im really not, and I dont know who put that idea in their head.
And everyone thinks that I keep flirting with this 24 year old guy.
Wrong. The only thing we have ever spoken to each other was
when he hit on me, and I was just like omg.
He is hot but I mean he is 24. Hello!
I love how everyone thinks that my business is theirs.
It makes me SOOO mad.

9-01-09

Its been a pretty rough month.
I'm no longer friends with Merrideth.
For good this time, we have not spoken to
each other in about two weeks and three days.
I found out my mom has Multiple Sclerosis.
She has had it for years and never told me,
I found out from my new best friend.
My mom told her mom.
And I eventually found out about it.
My mom doesn't know that I know,
And I'm thinking I want to keep it that way.
A lot more has happend but I don't want to get into it.
Right now I'm just sitting in my room listening to the
"Songs to save your life" play list on my Ipod.
I understand why my mom didn't tell me about
it, but she is always telling me to tell her things,
but if she planned on breaking down the wall between us,
she shouldn't have built it.

8-3-09

So, Im not exactly sure what to believe in anymore.
I got into a fight with my best friend about a week ago,
we made up but its still really weird.
Its weird because when we had the fight
she said some things that I thought was done with.
I guess the truth was that she never really let them go.
And now Im not sure If I can trust her enough to tell her
things like I used to. And thats not okay.
I wish It could be like it used to be,
but I dont think it ever will be.

7-29-09

I miss being a little kid.
When everything was easy, you know?

I officially start my traveling tomorrow!
I am so excited. We are leaving tomorrow
when my mother gets off work.
So we wont get to WV until really late.
I love going to my grandparents,
the small town they live in is so relaxing!
Every year the town has a huge 4th of July
parade. So that should be fun.
Then Sunday we have to get up really early
because I have to make it back home in time
because Im going on a retreat on the James
River with my best friend.
Im so excited. We will be gone for a week.
It should be fun. If I have time during the
retreat I will be sure to get on and write
about everything there.

Song that saved my life today:
Break me out By: The rescues